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Hi!

I’m Leanne.

As written above, I have a soft spot for all things romantic, heartbreaking, and beautiful.

Writing (and other forms of communication) has always been my tool to process my thoughts and feelings about anything and everything in the world.

I love love and relationships. I think that, without those two, life is definitely not worth living.

This website has two parts: thoughts and feelings. I enjoy all kinds of experiences and, in the words of one of my favorite writers Lena Dunham, “I just want to feel it all.”

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advocacy: unang beses

I didn’t know what age I was but I remember in 5th grade I was already dreaming of having sex. And I was really hooked with the sex scenes of Precious Hearts Romances pocketbooks. At that time, I thought that sex is just about the feeling of orgasm. For me, there's not too much fuss about the first time. It wasn't a definitive memory for me, and I never thought it had to be. This International Women’s Day we remember that... **Trigger warning: Content related to assault** “I was invited to my boyfriend’s house. I got to be alone with him at his tita's room. His family usually leaves us alone and we were able to do whatever we wanted to do. I was really awkward at that time because I was the typical nerd girl who only read books and fantasized about having a boyfriend. So, my expectations were really high. My boyfriend kissed me and asked if we can [have sex]. He was the sweetest because he made sure to make me feel okay. He went down on me and made me cum first, before asking if it was okay for him to put his dick inside. Feeling so happy and satisfied, I agreed. I didn't expect it to hurt that much so I cried. He hugged me and made me feel okay. Unfortunately, he would then cheat on me for three consecutive years. I had to pick myself up a million times because I thought that no one was ever going to love me after he ‘took away’ my virginity.” WANT TO SHARE YOUR OWN STORY? Reflect on your own experiences about your first times having sex, and contribute to our advocacy! “I just felt everyone else was doing it already. All of my friends were already doing it. When guys would ask me if I was a virgin and I’d say yes, they were always surprised. I was open about sex and my sexuality but I was also scared to do it. Eventually, I felt I was ready. I didn’t have a boyfriend or anyone special, I just chose someone in my school. I had this huge crush on the captain of the football team and so I gave it a try. At first, we were just texting and talking in school and eventually he asked me on a date. “I wouldn't trade my first time for anything. It isn't anything grand (quite cliché, actually) but it's really special to me. How do you see porn?

Firsthand accounts of Filipino/a/x people about their first times having sex. Share your story bit.ly/UnangBeses